another one

just another sleepless night with tears in my eyes asking God why he has choosen me to go through this path. it's harder on me because I am young I'm only 24 and everyone else my age is having babies left and right . I have no one to talk to that's on the same road as me . I hate my body and I hate my life .

I try not to think about it you know . mabe if I didn't want to be a mom it will happen on it's own but how do I pretended like I don't want to be a mom ? i always dreamed of being a mom 😣😭😭😭😭