We haven’t been TTC anymore due to my chemical pregnancy, we’re back on orthotricyclin low, and everything is still enlarged & ive been feeling pretty down in the dumps & im not confident right now. We’re still trying to look for a house, and save up for this New York trip & get his car done , but ugh I can’t even work enough to save up it seems like! 125 for the registration, I can’t let him fail, or fall. Honestly he’s everything I’ve ever wanted. Idc about him paying me back, I want him to spend it on himself, or his brothers & sister. Idc. I just want him happy. Even though we may still be under 20, (not saying age due to privacy concerns) we’re still making it for the both of us. We miss each other day in & day out, wishing things were different for each other but unfortunately they aren’t. We are getting by just fine with money, but bills right now are stacking up & we’re getting closer to the holiday’s and our families aren’t going to be coming together like they used to. We both have so much to plan for, and work for that it’s overwhelming and we don’t even know where to start. I’m putting a lock on our savings account & he can access the 125 when he needs to, and I can if I need to pull the cash to give to him.. ugh I just wanna be with him right now just holding him & letting him sleep in my arms 😭💔 he’s so mine. God I can’t even . I feel like I’m just ranting on.. it’s aggravating enough that he just got kicked out of his room , and he has a COUCH TO SLEEP ON FOR 400 a month!! Dear god orlando can’t get any worse for rent. It’s so expensive here Dude wth. I need advice. The only bills both of us have right now, is our phone bills, our car insurance, my car payment , food & our gas. But it’s about to get a lot more expensive .