So I'm sitting here at work, right?

All I can think about is some stupid psychic Jenny Renny reading I got in September that said Id get my BFP in November from a cycle that started in October. She was right.... for my first baby. So I'm going insane.

Symptom spotting for O since I've never been able to confirm it during any of my 14 cycles since active TTC. (NTNP since April 2016, Active since September 2016.)

Started taking evening primrose in September as well as vitamins. We BD every day so we got that covered. But I'm still like losing my mind, thinking how could this ever be possible. Ugly crying all month cause I'm so overwhelmed and discouraged, and unrealistically hopeful.

My husbands birthday is 11/23 and AF is due between 11/19 and 11/30. I just want to give him a surprise he'll never forget.

But I suppose if nothing else he'll get a different surprise he'll never forget.

We got a gym membership too so if not this month I'm dropping a few pounds and asking for Clomid.

So not all hope is lost if this isn't our month... but that's not helping my hamster wheel brain.

Anywho thanks for listening. Any advice or jokes or success stories with any of my attempts to get a BFP would be awesome!