Doctors appointment today. Unfortunately <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> has been put on pause at my Drs. Office until after the first of the year. But, that gives me time to lose more weight. I have lost 20lbs so far but need to at least lose another 20-30. Found out my Insurance will pay up to $15,000 for our <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> procedure so thats great, and my Dr. Said that, that would cover 3 cycles and if unsuccessful then their clinic has programs we can go through for financing.

If all goes well, we can start the process in January. I'm not good at having to wait. I plan EVERYTHING and I feel like I have no control and no time line and I'm at the mercy of my Doctor and Im going insane.

I have everything I could ask for in life..... except a baby, and I am thankful for my life. I just feel like I have put the entire puzzle together and it is beautiful, but it is missing a piece that I dont know will ever be found.