Dreading my appointment😖

38 weeks and have an appointment at noon today and I am dreading it because I already know they will check my cervix and they'll say "you're still closed tight." I don't want her to check anymore at this point it hurts a lot and I'm getting tired of being told I'm closed still especially since I'm struggling with hip pain that makes it hard for me to walk or even get up out of bed or a chair anymore and i have heart burn every night now. I'm so over being pregnant right now and I just want some good news but every time I see my OB nothing's ever different and it's frustrating. 👿