Having anxiety over coming HSG results

Aggy

Hi ladies, I need some words of hope and encouragement as I'm about to receive my HSG test results later... when I had the HSG it seems that BOTH my tubes are blocked (they cannot see my right tube at all and the dye went into my left tube but there was barely/ no spillage meaning it could be partially blocked)... it was also very excruciating to me, I had already prepared myself mentally that it would hurt but I was NOT prepared how much, I thought my uterus was going to explode. But PLEASE don't take this to mean HSGs are necessarily painful, it differs from individual to individual and it's actually less common to have excruciating pain (I was among the unlucky few).

Anyway... I don't know why I am having anxiety attacks... My heart keeps pounding every time I remember I'm getting results later and I start to hyperventilate. I know blocked tubes are not a death sentence but I feel like I'll break down.

Do you ladies have any tips or words of encouragement to prevent myself from being too depressed about the results? I lost hope in myself but I know God is the Most Giving.. I have nothing against <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>, it's just thoughts of "what if even that doesn't work", "what if it takes too much of an emotional toll on my relationship" and other negative thoughts.. 😔 I need to stop those thoughts but it's easier said than done 😞Also, success stories about pregnancy with blocked tubes would give me more hope. Thanks ladies, for all those TTC, I feel your pain.. and baby dust to all of you... ✨