help.

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ok so basically long story short I had a miscarriage threw me into a bad depression, got pregnant again gave birth to my beautiful baby girl who is now 3. my pre baby weight was 130 after I gave birth I was 165 my body had trouble producing milk I tried everything but my daughter needed so much more so we had to switch to formula after 4 months, at this time I was down to 148ish my doctors put me back onto meds as soon as I stopped breastfeeding I struggle with fibromyalgia, severe chronic migraines as well as anxiety deppression and panic attacks so they threw me on a ton of meds. and ever since I went from that 148 to 220. my body is still healthy though no high blood sugars no high cholesterol no high blood pressure I am healthy as far as that is concerned I just can't loose the weight. and I'm so uncomfortable. I can't even comprehend it honestly. I'm active and I am not a big eater, i rarely eat sweets I don't like sugary things. I don't drink pop, only coffee, tea and water we don't eat fast food I home cook everything. I'm just very scared because we are trying for baby number 2 and I am terrified that I will end up being even bigger by the end. any help or advice for being pregnant or for after is appreciated