So afraid to be excited, Expecting our Rainbow after 2 Miscarriages

Caitlyn

Hi ladies! A little backstory my husband and I have 3 beautiful healthy kids normal pregnancys. We decided about a year ago we wanted to add our fourth and final child I ended up having a missed miscarriage at 9 weeks in February of 2017 and had to have a D&C;, we became pregnant again in August of 2017 the baby's heart stopped beating at 6 weeks 4 days I ended up being able to miscarry our baby at home. I had all the multiple miscarriage test done and testing on the embryos and everything came back in as normal, as my doctor said sometimes these things just happen. I am due to start my period November 10th I ended up testing a couple days ago and got a BFP . I called my doctor and I'm going to be put on progesterone to see if that helps make a difference with carrying the baby. I have so many feelings going on I'm not sure if I should be excited and I'm so afraid to get attached to this baby, I feel awful for feeling this way... Has anyone else ever experienced this ?