My husband and I have been together for 6 years, married 2.

He’s a great man, he loves me whole heartedly. He’s an awesome dad to our children. He works hard everyday for our family And always makes sure he takes care of us but he has one problem..

He has anger issues. He used to abuse me really bad sometimes when I was pregnant with our daughter. But I finally put a stop to it when my grandmother saw him hit me. He went to counseling and got put on medicine for his anger. He is always truly sorry after he does this. He says he sees black and doesn’t remember anything. So scary. He says I push him.. I guess? But I think that’s what they all say.

Well he’s been doing really good for the past 7 months.. he has walked away when he felt his anger come on and he has calmed himself down. It’s been a relaxing 7 months.. I told him if he ever abused me again I would leave... but anyways, this week he’s been really grouchy and tonight we got into an argument because he took my phone to help me “fix it” but instead. Decided to snoop through it and it upset because he lied, to go through my things. I was upset because he is questioning my loyalty and trust me, I have never once had any eyes or sneakyness behind my husbands back. I’m a very loyal wife. So we got into an argument and he got pissy , so I said babe.. relax because you know you’ll regret this and then he snapped and choked me. Cut my inside of my cheek and bent my arm backwards. I was terrified. Shaking. Crying. He finally calmed down after a good half hour and he’s all sad. Very sorry and doesn’t know what to do about this awful problem..

I know he’s great guy and he loves me. We have a beautiful family together. But he’s got such bad anger. I’m not sure what to do st this point as a mom. Wife or women.

Someone please help me.. I’m so torn right now :,( I’m a mess.. I don’t want to keep letting this happen.. but I don’t want to tear my family apart. I was a girl of a broken home once and I hated it. But I also want to be the mom who’s strong and doesn’t put up with that shit.

I can’t imagine not having him in my life. Or having my daughter everyday. This is my life.. i just don’t know what to do.