5 months pp depression creeping in...

I can feel it and I'm scared!

I'm posting anon because I'm honestly just embarrassed.. it's not so bad that I can't look after my baby and myself so I don't feel ready to seek my doctors advice. Just advice from other mothers.. I'm feeling like I have nothing to look forward to and nobody to talk to, I'm not enjoying anything in my life except my little baby though sometimes it's hard. I've tried telling people how I feel and everything (people close to me) and nobody seems to care enough to actually help me. All really they say is how can I help you and what's wrong?.. and it makes me feel even worse. Basically I'm looking for ideas of things to try to help myself before I see a doctor. I've thought about hobbies and nothing really takes my fancy and everything just seems like too much effort. I'm lacking motivation where usually that's not a problem at all.

How do I bring my spark back? I'm so scared of everything that depression will bring to me and my baby