i have struggled with anxiety and depression as well as BDD for as long as i can remember, but at this point that is just the cherry on my fantastic cake of betrayal and heart break. my boyfriend of two years has cheated on me five times with the same girl. i recently reached out to her and we became friends quite quickly. me and my boyfriend stayed together as well. i alwsys kept an open mind, saying that this friendship would work. it didnt. my boyfriend started becoming distant and angry as well as abusive every single day, until one day he got loaded drunk and left me. He said it was because i was friends with this girl and he didnt want it in his life anymore. he told me he loved me, and goodbye. he packed up his things and he moved out. i continued to talk to this girl for a few days as she was helping me through the pain of the break up. she promised me she would never hurt me and that i could trust her, and i believed her. well tonight im sitting here in my apartment alone, i have no one and nothing to make me smile or laugh. my heart is pounding and aching, and i find out they are hanging out together right now. i trusted her, and i learned to trust him aswell even after everything he did. i realise how alone i am, i feel lost and confused. i dont believe i will be able to come back from this year of absolute torture. there were so many lies and so many times my heart has been shattered. aside from it being emotionally traumatic, my body is shutting down. my legs wont hold me up anymore. so i think tonight may be the night i end it all. i wish you all luck. sorry for the long story.