It’s really awful. First of all, I have a pimple above my lip that’s the size of mars. It popped by itself today but only like halfway, so it still hurts.

For some reason, near my jaw looks like I have a ton of acne scars/craters but yet I’ve never had tons of acne there, and if I did, I never picked at them. It’s also really red and splotchy.

My cheeks have these huge pores that never go away no matter what I do. There’s also some dry patches that makeup sticks to and looks super orange.

My nose and chin has millions of blackheads that also never go away. And my forehead is always so oily and the pores can be seen from a mile away. Today out of nowhere, my face got really red and hot. It’s just really embarrassing. I hate it when people get close up to talk to me. My skin looks bad with makeup and without it. I’d rather just wear a paper bag honestly.

I’m going to try eating better. I’ve been eating like a crazy person this week, and it’s been mostly junk because of period cravings. I’ve been trying to drink more water as well. And I really need to quit smoking, but surprisingly I don’t have too many wrinkles.

What else can I do skincare wise? The only thing I do now is wash in the morning and at night with the orange scented clean&clear; wash and an acne pad at night. Then Clinique or olay moisturizer every time I wash. And I’m hoping this awful feeling will pass as soon as my period is underway. I’ve been in the worst mood all week.