Sad story

I️ won’t make this painfully long. So around 6 months ago (I’m 19 years old btw) me and my boyfriend were having sex and the condom broke. Long story short, we had gotten pregnant and I️ made it clear I️ didn’t want an abortion. My emotion were all over the place and I️ was just listening to what everyone told me was best for me, in their opinion. My boyfriend however, basically told he’d never be happy again and he would leave me if I️ didn’t get an abortion. So as you would’ve guessed it, me being an emotional wreck, I️ had the abortion and it the biggest regret I️ have in my life. I’m always mad at my boyfriend and now his family, and I️ don’t know how to cope with this. Any advice?