I️ just need a break... Help!?

I’m 19 and a SAHM, I️ live with my boyfriend who works M/F 8-5. My daughter isn’t biologically his, but she’s is.

I️ don’t work because we can’t afford daycare;

I️ don’t ever just get me time, I️ have her constantly and I️ don’t mind because I️ love her to pieces but she’s two, and is in that terrible stage of hitting, growling, throwing toys at your head, wiping poop on the walls, only eats cereal and when I️ make her food she throws it at me.

I️ discipline her constantly! I️ feel like I️ am a failure at life, I’m constantly yelling at her, spanking her, telling her no, and she just growls at me. I️ feel miserableness being a mom, I️ always show her love, give her tons of hug, and kisses I️ tuck her in and she spits on me. 😭 I️ just don’t know what to do anymore, I️ feel like I’m breaking down on the inside. I️ have depend I️ the serious medication for it, I️ have no money, and no time for myself and when I️ ask someone to babysit her like my mom she says “she isn’t my responsibility she’s yours” I️ understand that but I️ haven’t been out but three times after having her. I️ just feel so alone.

I’ve explained how I️ felt to her Dad, and he tells me I️ need to go do something and be away from her for a few hours but the moment I️ try I️ feel absolutely like a shit parent because I️ can’t be away from her.

Can someone please talk to me .... 😭😭

I’m on the verge of losing my shit