Is it over?

I️ met a man in Feb 28 by faith we made strong eye contact and didn’t talk to each other till 3 weeks later in that mean time I️ was seeing someone else as a friend with benefits. I️ end up falling for the guy at the end of April so I️ broke it off with my friend with benefits but at the same I️ was seeing them both no I️ wasn’t having sex with the other person but I️ was kissing him and then see the other guy for hook up. 9 months later I️ with the guy I️ met and he was getting phone calls at work saying I was seeing the both at the same time so I️ lied and yesterday he broke and I told him everything. I️ wasn’t certain in the beginning about us so that why I️ did what I did but I️ know now how much I️ love him and now he says he’ll never trust me again and he can’t recover he thought the day are eyes Met was it and I️ wasn’t with anyone else. Yes I️ know I’m dumb but I️ don’t know what to do I want him back I truly love him and why I hid it I️ was afraid of losing him. I️ need some advice.