I was single for 3 years. After a shitty and emotional draining relationship I decided to work on myself. Stay focused on school and work. 4 months ago this man walked back into my life. We never dated or fooled around. We both have a history of ex's that mentally fucked us up. This is where my depression kicks in. I've never had a man figure in my life so my trust for men is very dysfunctional. This man has helped me mentally. but do you ever feel like this is to good to be true. I've never had a man treat me this way. yes it's a great thing. but I struggle everyday. the thoughts run through my head on daily. when is he going to leave? is he even happy with me? does he even want this? It's not that I don't trust him but I've been broken so many times that I keep this gaurd up so that I'm not as vulnerable whenever he decides to leave. so I don't get emotionally destroyed again. I love this man. I want a future with him. the one thing I seem to struggle with is my PTSD and Depression. But I've learn to live in the moment and make living worth it. I will overcome this. I've been through worse things and overcome situations that I swore I wouldn't make it out of okay. I'm blessed. I'm worth it. I am strong. sand deserve so much more than i give myself credit of. Who ever is reading this. Whoever took the time to actually read this.... You deserve happiness despite the things those have said to you. You will make it. Just hole on. You got this. Keep your story going beautiful. don't let anyone tell you anything different;