I lost my baby right after christmas he/she was only 8wks and no longer had a heart beat. I think/cry about it often and honestly just need to vent...we want a baby really bad but I can't help but think how I had one lost it and would be replacing him or her fearful I wouldn't "talk" to my baby in heaven as much as do now which is quite frequently (eases my heart for a while). I'm so hesitant also because I just found out my mother has scleroderma not normally hereditary except seems to be in our family. -vent over thanks for reading!