I don’t know where to begin really. Let me start at my freshman year in high school (I’m a sophomore in college now). I became friends with a 7th grade boy. We did band together and had band class together. The high school and jr. high would share a class so that the upper class men and more experienced players could help the less experienced ones. Me and this boy became best friends. Such best friends that nothing was weird between us. We would Skype all the time, we weren’t scared to talk about some weird ass bump on our private area, or talk about what our shit looked like. We were so close and so inseparable. He has helped me through so much and vice versa. Honestly if I could describe it, we were on in the same. Let me also say there were NEVER feelings between us. He did have a crush on me, but that was before we became so close. Anyways all trough high school and even my first year here at college he’s been so supportive and just a typical best friend.

Now let’s flash forward to now...we barely talk anymore, and it’s like we know we’re still best friends and we’re still 100% comfy with one another, but it’s like at the same time we cease to exist to each other. I guess it makes sense bc he has his life and I have mine (he’s two years below me). He’s got a gf that loves him unconditionally with makes me SO HAPPY only bc of the shit that so many other girls have put him through. I have a boyfriend and a baby on the way and he’s so supportive of it, and so excited to meet the LO in May when I’m due. It’s just idk he’s always there to talk when I need to and I’m there for him, but lately its me ranting to him and then opened Snapchat messages that never get replied to. I feel so empty and I just feel so hurt that my best friend is barely even here anymore. It’s like this empty void that no one will be able to replace.

Don’t get me wrong, I love my boyfriend and we’re so happy together. In all honestly he’s my other best friend that I can go to for anything, of course, but at the same time best friend and boyfriend are just so different. Idk how to explain it.

Has anyone dealt with this, or is dealing with this? I’m fine. I’m okay, I just feel empty. I feel like I don’t have that extra person to tell my secrets to anymore. It just sucks, really and I wouldn’t wish this feeling on anyone...