Going out of my mind

i got off the pill 10/8 started my period 10/11-10/14 my partner and I have been TTC since then. I never really had EWCM and had 1 very faint positive ovulation prediction test. my period was supposed to start 11/7 according to a 28 day cycle but I was on the pill for 8 years and never tracked my cycle before so I honestly dk if I have a 28d cycle. so now I'm on day 34, no spotting but I have had on and off stomach aches and cramping but that could also be from eating 2 donuts in 1 sitting lol I've had a cold so headache and body aches were expected. I'm scared to test mostly bc I'm scared it's going to be negative and the disappointment will be terrible. I'm still expecting to wake up every morning to AF. I just needed to share this with someone.

***update*** period is almost 1 week late, no spotting no nothing but had cramps and bloating last night. tested as soon as woke up this morning to a BFN 😑😑😭