Okay, I don’t usually do things like this but I’m at a loss. I need help... I was with this guy over a year and a half. In june we fell pregnant and lost the baby, that on top of many many other things helped end our relationship. Well one of the biggest reasons was a girl. There is a friend group and we are all very close. She happens to be apart of it. Last January he slept with that girl and confessed to cheating. They both said it was a mistake and nothing from there on. After we broke up him and that girl got together. I was obviously devastated cause I was still dealing with the loss of the baby. I bled from June til September. well him and I had a few fall in’s and out’s.. we ended up hooking up a few times while he’s with that girl.... now I’m pregnant. At first he dropped her and said he wanted to focus on the baby and us... then a week ago I got into a car accident (he doesn’t have a car) and now that I can’t just go be around whenever he’s been distant. I’ve found out twice that, that girl has spent the night in his bed and lord only knows how many times is the truth since I’m not able to go over there... ugh I just feel so stupid. I don’t think I could handle terminating the pregnancy and going through the emotional part of that for I am still devastated over my first loss.. I don’t know how to walk away for I lost everyone when I was in that relationship due to control- I didn’t have my own friends, just him and his friend group. Idk ladies... I’m at a loss but I’m tired of waking up every morning and feeling so stupid...