confused...

I had af at the beginning of the month but it was shorter and lighter then normal, my husband and i have been going at it also. It feels like I ovulated already even tho this is my "week" and to add I feel like crap. I can't keep anything down, and tbh I'm kinda scared to test bc I already spent what feels like thousands of dollars on test... dollar store test included. going to the dr is kinda impossible bc in my great state they won't see u unless u have not one but 2 positive at home test. and I don't want to spend the whole day or night in the ER. I almost wanna give up but this hopefully is my rainbow and I'm just WISHING, hopeing, thinking and praying... wish me luck... baby dust ☄💫