AF is due in two days and I've already started to have heavy spotting, which I get before the real deal starts. I also took a test and got a BFN. So I know this month I'm out even though I prayed and declared it.

I was heartbroken of course, and I cried and fell into my usual depression.

However, I had to snap out of it and remember that God's timing is always perfect! With AF coming, this weekend I can enjoy a cocktail, relax at home and sip my favourite wine!

Then next when AF is over, time to try again! I might not have gotten my Thanksgiving BFP but a Christmas one is even better!

I've been in this race for quite some time (I'm talking years!) but I refuse to give up hope! I want to be a mother more than anything in this world and one day it's going to happen!

Good luck ladies! As long as you have life there's hope! Sending loads of baby dust to you all!