I’m like really hurt and upset. So I’ve previously tried a couple different pills, all of them ended up with me in sever abdominal pain, inability to eat/could only have like a a table spoon of water every hour/half hour that’s all I could have or it’d hurt so bad. When I forced my self to eat through the pain around day three I’d just throw it up because my stomach just couldn’t take it. It happened with multiple pills I tried and stopped the day I didn’t take one. So I tried the bar and I stuck out a years worth of period straight and on and off pain, this is when I met him I was on the bar. But it got to the point where I couldn’t anymore, so I’ve since taken it out. So the condom has broken a few times and now he’s putting pressure on me to get on a birth control. He isn’t understanding that I don’t want to until next year December earliest when my body has settled from the bar. He knows that I’ve had problems every birth control I’ve tried and that I’m also iffy about birth control because my grandmother had to have her ovaries removed because of cancer then further down the track had her uterus removed from another cancer. With my experienced history and that and some birth controls effects with different cancers I’m just worried. I’m just feeling so pressured and I really want to have kids come 5 years time but with the family history and my experience I really worried about trying anymore. But I don’t want him to leave because he doesn’t feel safe to have sex with me in case the condom breaks and I get pregnant. 😔