Ok so I really don’t know why I am posting. Long story..

I have never wanted children until last Oct I found out I was pregnant and it was such an amazing feeling to miscarry around 8 weeks. I felt broken and depressed but thought it happens to everyone. We tried and tried and a year later 2 weeks before we found out in 2016 I found out I was pregnant again to miscarry 3 days later, it was devastating.

I feel so low. I HATE seeing baby pictures and people saying they are pregnant. I have never wanted anything more but feel totally drained waiting every month and feel so guilty after blocking people because they are pregnant. I don’t feel happy at all for them. I just want my baby 😓