Just need to vent

Ivd been ttc for 2 year this past few months me and my husband have actually been trying not just having sex but tracking ovulation, got him involved by downloading the glow app too, he got tested he has 11 million sperm count , hes been taking medicine to increase it. Ive been testing and idk what wrong with me if there is since ive only gotten a physical but i see alot of horror stories about past depo users so i tried to detox, i take prenatal, hyper ovulation vitamins, and use preseed this was our first month using that. My cycle is due in a few days and i feel i lost all hope I dont even get excited anymore I automatically prepare for worst . Im22! My friends who arent even married or financially stable are popping out babies like crazy mean while im 22 trying i never thought I would ever be in this position