ttc for 8 yrs and I finally in my heart gave up. accepting that it's just not going to happen & it's actually for the best because my life is always a crazy disaster. no way could I afford to have one rn anyway. plus everyone's kids just piss me off to no end. so maybe I'm just not mother material. ("it's different when it's your own" "don't give up" etc...)

but then this shit happens

I took a test 11/14 and one today 11/18

my body is a ginormous prick.

so now I still wait for AF to show. on to day 48! 😒