My husband tries to help me love myself but it is so difficult. We have been together since 2011 and I have always been thin since I have suffered from Anorexia. I was anorexic since Junior year of high school and all the way to 2 years ago. last year I had finally let it go from being anorexic and I felt more comfortable eating whatever I wanted to eat... Well now it has catched up to me... I'm always upset about my weight but then I don't have money for a gym membership. I use to be so toned and thin that now that I'm not I am so miserable. I don't have the motivation to go work out anyways so it's my fault... It's my fault I know... I always say why did I let myself go. I am 5'4 and use to weight 105 and now I weight 131. I need motivation... if you could please help me find that motivation...