What the hell

I had a miscarriage 6 weeks ago at 16 weeks pregnant with my beautiful little boy. I called my mom so we can return the baby stroller carseat and crib. my husband told me no because we are going to try right away. we got the clear, my doctor out me on hormones to ovulate, I am doing everything to assure that I will eliminate any possibilities to miscarry, and my husband is not wanting to have sex during my fertile window. what the actual Fuck? then I tell him okay well I guess we aren't trying again and he says nothing. like what the hell? So here I am a mess because the thing that I was promised isnt going to happen.