So lately I've been feeling not myself. I'm 2 weeks postpartum and don't even know if it can happen this late. I love my baby and I'm bonding so good with her. It's actually my husband. Some say it's signs of domestic violence but idk. We've fought and he's broken things before. He's broken everything from our tail light to a whole door frame causing it not to be able to close properly. He also has a habit of every time he even thinks an argument is going to happen he just leaves. I won't know where he is and sometimes he won't come back until morning and it's usually not sober. I find myself crying like I am now when I think about it. Everything in my body tells me to get out but another says to stay. I mean he is my husband and the father of my child. But I feel so depressed around him. When he's gone at work and it's just me and baby at home I'm happy!! Then he walks in the door and it's like I feel like I need to constantly apologize for everything. I mean like even things i can't control. Idk if this even is postpartum depression or what it is. I know I'm sad when he's here. And I feel... idk I feel like I can't be me and that I have to take the blame for everything because I don't want him get mad and leave our daughter like he's left me so many times. Can your husband even cause postpartum depression? I really don't have anyone to talk to about this except you ladies so anything helps. Thank you.