So this entire pregnancy I’ve read on here how so many of you Mamas feel so happy when you feel baby’s movement or you embrace your stretch marks because it’s like markings from your body changing for your baby. I’ve also heard these things from people in my life or on friends on social media BUT I CANT SEEM TO FEEL THE SAME! When I feel my daughter move it freaks me out and I’m 37+2 weeks so I’m certainly use to this happening now. But every time I feel her move it creeps me out and I only appreciate it because then I know she’s not dead in me. And my stretch marks make me want to cry! It’s so hard to imagine that even w hard work I’ll ever have my body back! (WARNING TMI) Also the other week I was massaging my boobs and that first milky nutrient stuff came out! I was so grossed out I couldn’t even touch it with my hand, I used a wet napkin to wipe it up and throw it away like I had a disease or something. Idk I just feel like I’m suppose to be in love with these changes and feelings but I am absolutely grossed out, creeped out, and praying for the day this is over! 😩😅 does this make me a bad Mommy already?

PS I am a FTM as well so maybe this is normal? Idk 😩