lost it..

I found out I was pregnant about a week ago. I was 6weeks when I found out.. me and boyfriend decided not to tell anyone... well today I ended up losing the baby.. this isn't the first time... I told him and he said he would call me in a minute it's been 2 hrs... I've tried calling n txting... I haven't got any answer... I feel very alone in this... I have my almost 3 yr old here with me rn trying so hard not to brake down.. since only me n him know I have no one else to go to.. just super done at this point... idk what to do. p.s. I have a past self harm issue and I am feeling the struggling urge and I'm doing everything to take my mind off it..