Venting, still not pregnant

Autumn • My beautiful son born 5/26/19 💙🥰❤️😍

My husband and I have been trying for two years now. I just feel like giving up at this point. It's so hard because I want this so bad. But what if it's just not gods plan for me? Or if it's just not meant to happen? I don't want to keep emotionally investing myself this way if it's never going to even happen. I feel so defeated. I don't know how some of you can still try after 5+ years of trying.