I'm losing it!!

I'm 9DPO and to be honest i have lost all mental strength and can't symptom spot anymore because everytime i do I'm always proved wrong.

I have been trying for 4 years and no luck...I have completely lost hope, I have tried everything out there, been checked by a fertility specialist and all is fine with me and my husband but still no luck....We have decided on IVF and our first cycle will start towards the end of January but all those months I have had negatives and i have completely broken down and don't have the srength, I'm so scared that IVF won't wotk either.

Please guys keep me in you're prayers and lots of baby dust to everyone ttc.