I see all these people posting their announcements and I'm so excited for them and when I see people say oh I'm out of the worry zone it's safe to announce I cringe because I'm struggling so hard with announcing to the public about my pregnancy. I'll never feel safe with my pregnancy. I lost my first son at 30 weeks. I had a vaginal birth and he was stillborn. my second pregnancy I miscarried at 6 weeks. This is my third pregnancy and part of me wants to be so happy and announce it to everyone but a big part of me will never feel safe until I'm holding my baby in my arms healthy and breathing. I have made it this far so I should be proud but right now and willing to share. All my friends are posting their announcements. I'm anxious but hesitant at the sametime. I'm so complicated. my brain is scrambled to announce or wait.