Just need to rant really because I know I'm being a bit silly but still. I've been feeling so down and insecure lately.

I've been gaining weight slowly since having my son 6 weeks ago and I really noticed it for the first time a few days ago. I've been putting together a healthy eating plan to start soon but it's just got me feeling low.

On top of that, I prolapsed after labour and I'm still not totally back to normal, and my bleeding is only just stopping. I'm breastfeeding also which requires pads to be worn round the clock, so all of this means I haven't been able (or felt comfortable enough) to be naked around my partner for over a month, let alone get intimate. He's getting frustrated although he assures me that he can wait for however long it takes, but he's also a personal trainer and spends his days at work getting up close with ladies (and and men of course) and my hormonal mind has got me feeling so insecure, it's driving me crazy.

I know he wouldn't cheat or even consider it, but I also know that the women he trains can get a flirty sometimes and I can't help but think that he'll get caught up in that with him being so horny. He tells me about how "blah blah is so nice, she does rock climbing now too which is awesome" which is harmless of course but I just get so down. Can't really talk to him about it either, as he tries to understand but can't really see where I'm coming from. It's pretty irrational, I'll give him that.

Eh, I don't know, just feeling like shit 😔😒