Virgin pleasures/problems

I always squirt when I pleasure myself, but I’m a virgin and I have to stay a virgin till marriage due to religious reasons. So the only way I masturbate is through clitoral stimulation.

I hate being a virgin because I feel like I’m supposed to be sexually active.. like I started touching myself since I was eleven (of course I didn’t understand what I was doing). I already had desires and dirty thoughts since a young age, but here I am, 23 years old and sexually deprived.

Now that I’m getting older, I get hot easily, like when I see an attractive looking guy, I just fantasize about him. It’s harder when you’re working with several hot guys in the office. And I’m embarrassed with my thoughts, because they’re professional people, including me.

I don’t wanna get married yet, I’m still young, but it’s the only way I can have sex. And I would never do oral or anal while unmarried.