I'm terrified. My little girl is 2 and a half days old and is poorly. Her blood test showed an infection so they're running loads of tests and have her on loads of meds. She's still with me, not on the neo natal ward so I know that should be comforting but I'm absolutely terrified. I'm constantly watching her breathing and checking she's ok and it's impossible to sleep. Her skin has started to go yellow over the last few hours and my milk is now coming in so I've just had a massive break down. I'm ok when my husband is here but I've sent him home so he can sleep overnight to give me some sleep tomorrow. When he goes I feel like I can't cope. I brought this tiny precious little person into the world but I've failed to protect her at the time she needs it most. I never thought being a Mum would be this terrifying. My heart is breaking because I feel like I've failed her already and she deserves so much more.