Let me start off by saying I am so thankful and blessed for my son. He is almost 10 months old, hes happy, healthy and the most amazing little boy. At times I feel like I failed him as a mom because I decided to not breastfeed him when he was born. Regret and guilt hit me around 3 weeks old and I was able to begin breastfeeding, I was blessed that even though I didnt breastfeed at all those first few weeks that I still had milk. The feeling of failure still hits me because I didnt start the day he was born. I feel like he missed out on crucial milk for his immune system by not receiving any colostrum. I pray that he has been and is receiving benefits for the last 9 months. We are still nursing and will continue until he decides to self wean.To whoever reads this, thank you for reading 💙 Just needed somewhere to express my emotions.