Feeling like sh*t

I love this app and all the the encouraging and hopeful women.

However, my boyfriend and I are going through it and other personal things are creating obstacles for me in this pregnancy.

The reason why I feel like sh*t is because I’ve been contemplating on aborting my baby.

I am 8 weeks and 3 days.

I heard the heartbeat already.

I feel terrible aborting something that’s already alive inside me, needing me for survival. Also, I read about women TTC and miscarrying on this app which makes me feel even worse.

I have a healthy baby which I should be ecstatic about but I’m not.

I’m stressing out and becoming really depressed. No amount of therapy will help me and my environment in which I am living is not Ideal for a new addition.

I’m not really looking for opinions because I know there will be some women who will leave nasty ones. I guess I just needed to vent this because it is tearing me up inside and I don’t have anyone to turn to for support.

Adoption is out of the question because there are not many people looking to adopt black children and I would hate my child to grow up in the system because of me.

Edit: this is because I want to stay anonymous, I won’t be able to answer your questions individually.