Feeling alone, unappreciated HELP!!

I can't take it!!! I have a 4year old lil girl and a 3week old lil girl. Lately I feel left out alone unappreciated. I'm insecure abt myself after baby! I cry n just feel alone. My boyfriend works 10-11 hr shifts 6days a week he off only on sundays now he used to be off Sunday n Monday but he pull extra because my job didn't give me paid maternity leave! But just lately I feel like he don't notic me or care abt me! He used to make me feel special n now he don't even try... My mother day sucked it wasn't even my day😢. I stay home with both kids all day n I get up with bby every night plus do all the doc appt and enrolling for school and what not by myself cuz he only off sundays. It's getting hard on me I just cry n cry to myself when alone! I'm overly tired my eyes burly stay open my patience is running low im grumpy. But my SO don't get it. Id rather go work all day! I don't have time to myself what so. Ever! We don't tlk or cuddle or anything anymore I feel alone I don't get to go anywhere he gets to go to work all day n on Mondays he goes to friends house till 1am I don't go no where I don't have friends or the money to go anywhere!! And at night I'll hit him to get bby to feed her n what not but still nothing he won't budge so I end up getting up! I actually get ready n he just makes me like I'm not pretty after baby I love him I do but idk what to do I feel like I'm going to snap plZ help!!