Don’t get me wrong, I’m certainly happy for everyone around me whose pregnant (which seems to me pretty much everyone, at work and family) but it’s just so super hard to not get jealous or down about the trouble that my fiancé and I are having at the moment. I’ve recently been told I have sub clinical hypothyroidism and apparently a low AMH level. Hearing this, I was distraught because of all the complications and tests I had to go through, trying to be positive and it’s come back negative. It’s disappointing because my period is so super irregular and I don’t even ovulate sometimes. I’m still going to the gynaecologist and he’s referred me to an endocrinologist who will hopefully do something to help because the gyno definitely isn’t. I don’t know how to not be upset about all of this. As well as the fact I’ve had my period now for 7 days running, and there’s no lightening, but this is a symptom of my hypothyroidism so I don’t know whether to go and annoy the doctor again or not.

I’m sad a lot of the time because I don’t feel like I’m getting help, or getting anywhere. I feel like a failure to my fiancé as well as my parents and parents in law, right now. I just need a positive attitude and mindset but it’s just so hard.