Christmas time is usually my favorite time of year but this year feels different. We had 2 miscarriages earlier this year. If the first pregnancy had gone normally we would have a 2 1/2 month old now to share the holidays with. I walked past a baby about that age sitting on Santa’s lap at the mall and almost burst into tears. I have come to terms with what we went through and my husband and I are looking forward to trying again soon, but it is going to be harder to hold onto the joy of Christmas than I thought it would be. I’m sharing this story to let others who are feeling the same way know they’re not alone.