Does anyone else feel they’ve lost themselves after having children?

Please don’t judge.

I love my children dearly.

& I wouldn’t change them for the world.

I know you make sacrifices when becoming a Mother.

I am a single 26 year old woman with 2 children aged six and two.

I just feel like I have no purpose to anyone anymore. Obviously I do to my kids, but everyday is the same.

Speak to no one apart from my family. I don’t see anybody, maybe one friend like every 3/4 weeks.

I feel like I literally live week by week. The same school run, home, same playgroups and after school clubs.

I can’t remember the last time I bought myself anything. I never just treat myself, even down to my underwear I’ve had that since before my eldest was born.

I feel like I need time for me. A hobby, just something? A shopping trip maybe.

I tell myself I have no money but in all fairness everything I have goes on my children.

I’m sure this goes for a lot of Mother’s when I say I feel guilty about spending any money on myself. Even down to a hot chocolate or something when Christmas shopping, I tell myself I could of spent that on milk.

I feel like I am literally no one. I know it sounds stupid but it’s embarrassing when I’m speaking to another adult and they ask what I’ve been doing. I’ve done nothing. I haven’t got any conversation that isn’t about my children.

I just need to adult. 😫

Or find something to make me feel like me again. 😢