NEED HELP

Sarah

Please tell me if this is normal.. I am sooooo sore. I am two weeks postpartum tomorrow. I had a large baby (9 pounds 12 ounces) vaginally. I suffered a second degree tear. I have stopped bleeding with no clots or anything but I am so sore. What concerns me is that I am sore up front like near my clitoris (sorry TMI). I also keep peeing my pants. I have no feeling in my bladder and I can't tell when I have to pee so I keep soaking my pants. I am getting so depressed I just want to take my little one out and I feel like I can't even enjoy because I am constantly having to soak in a bath. My husband is having to watch the baby on his own every time I get home because inevitably I have peed my pants and am so sore I need a hot bath. My actual vagina feels fine I think my stitches have dissolved. It is only up front. Is there anything I can do? Please tell me this is normal.