Just venting...

I’ve been hearing about a lot of people getting pregnant recently while they weren’t trying. We had basically given up years ago because we could no longer afford treatments and the emotional pain was becoming unbearable. But stupidly I let myself get my hopes up even though I tried not to and period came today :(

It’s just so frustrating to see all these people on the news who have kids and hurt or kill them and I’m just over here like wtf is wrong with me? I mean lunatics are having babies but I’m not worthy? And why the hell do I get a damn period every month when clearly the shop isn’t working? It’s just mean. I kinda feels like God must really hate me. UGH!! That is all! 💔