Ttc makes me feel crazy

I have been trying to conceive since 2 years ago I did stop for a while almost 5 months but I took 3 plan b during that time because the timing was just not right and we decided again to try and this would be the first month and I hate how I immediately search up all the signs and start feeling all these symptoms like why does my brain and body make me feel like I am it’s way too soon to test but I’ll be very disappointed I did not get any implantation bleeding and my period is 8 days away gosh it feels like an eternity I’m scared that taking those plan b affect my fertility I took one two months ago and now here I am trying to conceive I really hope I am but I know my mind is playing tricks on me getting pregnant is not as easy as it seems I did try for a year and a half before and I don’t know if I’m eating a lot out of depression or stress in wanting to start a family so bad I know cravings don’t start so soon I haven’t even had a late period I wish there was a faster method