I had twins. they stopped growing at 7 weeks. My husband is trapped at work and can't come home. I'm home alone and I wish I could stop existing. I want to be a mom so bad. it's all I've ever wanted. and I failed.

I have to go in for a d&c; in a few hours and it's going to destroy me. I feel so helpless. My heart is in so much pain and I can't stop crying. It's 730 in the morning rn and my midwife will be calling me any minute to let me know when to go to the hospital.

I just keep thinking how wonderful it would have been if they had lived.