So afraid this isn't real!!!

It's been 2 years tomorrow when we lost our daughter when I was 5 months pregnant. I've been on a long journey of clomid, Femara etc. 3 weeks ago the OB decided to do an HSG and another round of Femara. I started having pains like I had with the HSG so decided to test, also with hopes. The first test I finally learned what people meant by "line eyes" because I was so uncertain. Waited a day and did another line test with a the digital and it said yes!! Tomorrow on our daughters birthday, I'm leaving a package for my husband to open whole I go to my physical therapy appointment. I'm so thankful to God that this happened but also so afraid to be excited because of what happened 2 years ago!! Anyway, needed to share since I'm certain we'll be keeping this secret till I'm 20-24 weeks.