My baby is a week old now, and I just feel mentally exhausted.

My husband and I are 19, so we’re very young parents and have so much support from family, but honestly, I feel like hell.

All throughout the pregnancy I was so excited for the baby, I had everything planned and got happy just by seeing a baby on TV.

But now that he’s born I feel the polar opposite. As much as I love my baby, everything in my life has changed, and I hate it. Breastfeeding, though getting easier, is hard. Feeding at night is hard. And I barely get to see my husband anymore. When he gets home from work the day just gets more chaotic, and even if I have a good day, the chaos makes me feel bad again.

I miss being able to talk to my husband about things, I miss cuddling with him all weekend, I miss making his lunch in the morning and emptying it at night, I miss our pre-sleep pillowtalk, I just miss my life.

I’m scared to see my Doctor about it because I’m worried they’ll take him away from me because I’m so young. I just don’t have anyone to talk to and I don’t know what to do.