my life is non stop disappointments

friday afternoon i just received a sharp pain on my left side..(literally out of nowhere) thought i pulled a muscle, but the pain wouldn't let up. Friday came and gone and by Saturday its still there. Today is now sunday and i noticed a small lump right above my left hip bone its basically sitting on my hip ..its under my skin not a bruised. but its tender it burns and it hurts regardless but when i cough, sleep, lay, eat, sit up, get up, laugh anything that's movement i feel the pain much worse. i noticed red dots/harsh like last night but by the morning they went away but pain is still there so i get up and go in. They gave me cat scans instead of x-rays because im trying to get pregnant i told them. So they detect the problem and finally after 2 hrs they tell me .. i have the shingles .. my heart just dropped. will this effect my chances of pregnancy because i want kids but as a kid i never got chickenpox. So it just hurts physically and mentally that my life will never be what i want. cant catch a break I've been through so much its depressive. I just want a family like the ones i see everywhere i go. I can say giving up don't sound so bad since its never been good. please everyone just say a prayer for me 🙌🙌🙌🙏im literally at my breaking point cant hold myself up much longer. im tired and in pain 😢😢😞😞